Without You in the World

87 days has past,

12 weeks and 3 days and it still feels like on day one.

Without you in the world, there’s nothing more to live,

All love, all hope and all my emotions died with you,

Now I’m empty, numb and completely lost.

Without you there’s no way back into life,

Everything is unimportant, blurred and dull.

87 days without you,

87 days and I still can’t find a reason to live.

I fake a smile to make the others happy,

But all I want is cry.

And at night I uncage my tears,

Till my heart begins to prick,

Till my eyes are empty and I fall asleep.

87 days ago my life has ended,

87 days and all what’s left of you is some ash in an urn, with your name on it.

Now I’m asking ‘Why?’,

I thought you’d have still so much time.

And it breaks my heart in two,

I just don’t know how to let you go.

87 days you’re gone,

87 days of hell and there’s no light in sight.

87 days of pain,