Weak Moments
 
As I thought we would be friends,
I didn’t know how wrong I was.
Out of friendship, out of love,
Helped you where I could.
Only wanted respect back,
And maybe back some love.
But all I got was an illusion of everything I wished for.
 
I couldn’t admit to myself how it was,
Blind because I didn’t want to see it,
Naïve like I was,
Thought there would have been a chance,
And it took me only years to see.
 
Bittersweet lies I’ve talked myself into,
Crumbled down the wall,
And broke down the illusion of my pretty world.
But I’ve realized the truth,
Accepted it and moved on,
Tho, every now and then I’m still looking back to you.
But I’ll never let you know,
Cuz I’m not gonna ever crawl back to you.
 
So excuse my weak moments where I think of you,
Think of the illusion of what we’ve had.
Excuse the weak moments where I want to pick up the phone and call,
Just to hear your voice,
Just to know if you’re okay.
 
Excuse that I wanted to be your friend,
Excuse,
Because it was apparently more than you were willing to give,
More than you were willing to do for me,
It was more than you were willing to see in me
 
© D.M.K.